How to Come Out of the Spiritual Closet

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“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom”. – Anais Nin

Coming out the spiritual closet can be terrifying. I know.

My journey to owning my gifts has been an ongoing relationship of love, acceptance and surrender.

I feel that most days I am uncomfortable but in my practice of being human I remember that I am not separate from others.

If anything my gifts brings me closer to connection, trust and vulnerability.

Talking dreams, spirit, intuition and all the things that are still becoming mainstream can be scary but yet invigorating.

I find liberation in my practice through yoga, pranayama, journaling and meditation. I find answers that I otherwise don’t get it in my waking life.

The process to discovering, owning and then sharing our gifts with the world is a delicate journey.

Some people leap right in and for some of us it takes time.

I like to remind myself that on the other side of fear is freedom.

It is a constant practice of sharing my gifts with the world.

This is true for anyone passionate about anything. Artists, writers, creatives, chefs, craftsmanship. It all requires a sense of mastery and surrender.

Letting go of the effect but trusting in the process.

Coming out of the spiritual closet requires:

  1. Remembering “WHY” we fell in love with the art of spirituality
  2. Having a vision that we are committed to, i.e. I teach people life-changing spiritual tools so they can live free, transformed and intuitively guided lives supported by the universe.
  3. Surrender, i.e. surrendering to being present with every moment being a gift to share something beautiful about ourselves in hopes of helping another
  4. Trust; trusting that there is a reason and purpose for what we feel to be true in our nature and relationship to self and the universe.

Start big, start small. Mainly just start.

The first step begins now.

On the other side of every doubt, fear, insecurity is a new gift waiting to be received.

How My Intuition Became My Home

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“At times you have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you’ll discover will be wonderful. What you’ll discover is yourself.” — Alan Alda

Our intuition manifests in different ways. Often times we experience intuitive phenomena with our families, loved ones, dreams and the paranormal. Sometimes our intuition may peak during transitions or after loss and trauma.

For me, my experience of discovering my spiritual gifts was a little different than some of the common stories you hear of people seeing spirits growing up or things of sort.

I grew up in an extremely challenging and abusive home where my parents weren’t the safest nor healthiest role models to guide or show me the way.

My natural response to the constant emotional distress was to turn inward to my inner voice and imagination. I discovered my gifts of creativity, writing, and intuition. I found safety, refuge and a home in these gifts and spent many nights journaling and praying to the Universe.

I often consulted with my intuition and looked for signs in my daily environment as answers. If I couldn’t change my outside circumstances I could most definitely change the little world that I lived in within.

I didn’t know at the time that I had spiritual gifts. I only knew I was unique and had a story I wanted to share to help someone else find their way through a dark time. You see, I always had this resilient spirit and I never let my circumstances bring me down for too long.

I just knew that I was given a story that I could possibly help save someone else’s life with. I knew that my childhood and teen years of trauma and pain didn’t happen for nothing.

I wasn’t going to leave behind a war zone with just scars. I knew that the universe had a special plan for me so I surrendered and let my soul guide me.

After I moved away from home, I vowed I would leave it all behind, start fresh and forget about all of it. However, no matter how far we try to run from the past it always does seem to find us.

I realized I couldn’t run, forget or bury it so I allowed it to transform my life. My intuitive and spiritual gifts began to blossom and I found a passion in healing myself not just through therapy but with spirituality.

I started to meditate and attended workshops on every type of spiritual art out there including psychic development, mediumship, crystal healing and hypnotherapy. With every class I took I discovered a real passion in spirituality. My soul began to heal and release parts of my past that still haunted me.

My nightmares and night terrors went away. I got over a lot of anxiety with public speaking and speaking in general. I stopped being afraid of people and started looking them in the eye again. I gave the world a chance and opened up to building more intimate connections despite my fears.

In this journey I discovered, healed and released so much. I realized I really did have a gift of helping people and not just any gift but an array of spiritual and intuitive gifts.

Now I teach spiritual mentorship and work with people privately. I help them see their light when they have lost their way.

I let my intuition guide me to a home that is sacred and only mine, my spiritual home.

We are so much more than stories and what has happened to us.

We are miracles. Allow yours to take place.

*this article was also published on Huffington Post, Read Here.*

Discovering Your Soul’s Purpose with Three Simple Practices

https://i2.wp.com/stepconsulting.ca/wp-content/uploads/2013/04/purpose_examples3-600x325.jpgWe are each gifted in a unique and important way. It is our privilege and our adventure to discover our own special light.  -Mary Dunbar

Do you ever wonder what your purpose in life is? Or question when you will ever find it? The journey to discovering what your soul’s purpose is can sometimes feel long and never-ending. People have asked me, “How will I know that this is my purpose?”

Well, to be quite frank, sometimes you know right away what your purpose is and other times, you don’t. You may have some idea of what you want to do or what you want to be when you “grow up” but that’s it. Other times, you will feel like you are walking in the dark with no light and no one to tell you which way to go.

So many times, I have felt this way. As a child I knew I was drawn to helping people.  I had a heart of compassion, empathized and listened well. I knew I wanted to empower people to be happy and find themselves. However, over time even that desire was grey. Did I want to be a psychologist, life coach or counselor? The corporate world never resonated with me. I am more of a free spirit, discovering my path as I go. So after I graduated from college and the question came to, “What do I want to do with my life?”

I had no idea except to start a business of my own as an intuitive coach. Going out on a whim, I decided to take the leap and trust that this is what my soul wanted. I had no idea that it would lead me to where I am today, a thriving business owner, entrepreneur and consultant for helping people lead more fulfilled and empowered lives.

Taking the leap towards a passion or interest is like walking on a tightrope and hoping you don’t fall. You can’t look back and definitely are too afraid to look down. You just have to keep going forward and have faith that your intuition led you here for a reason.

So how can you begin the journey to discover your soul’s purpose? Here are three easy tips to finding your soul’s purpose.

1. Do more of what excites YOU!  Practice doing more things that make you excited, happy or joyful. What do you enjoy doing weekly or daily? Is it reading inspirational blog posts in the morning before work? Exercise or cooking?

This doesn’t mean it is your soul purpose to exercise or cook all the time but do know that these interests are what your soul needs more of. Think of your soul as a plant. It needs spiritual, mental, emotional and physical nourishment to grow and expand. The more you do, play and experiment the more you will discover.

2. Who are your icons? Who do you pay attention to most? These can be your favorite brands/public figures/characters in books or television show.

Why are you drawn to them? What excites you about them? Who do you aspire to be like?  List 5 qualities about 2-3 top icons/brands that you love and why. Now practice integrating those qualities more into your life.

3. Patience & Non-comparison- Realize this is where you are now and accept it. Most times we get caught up in resisting the here & now because we are in rat race to get to the final destination. Practice enjoying the moment more.

Remember, discovering your soul’s purpose isn’t always something you wake up with in your head or just dawns you. Sometimes it takes time and experimentation to really discover it. The more you practice doing simple and small tasks everyday of what you love and excites you, you start to grow into that of which you already are.

(this article was also published on HuffPost)

Embracing Who You Really Are

https://i0.wp.com/goldenwordsofself.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/03/embrace-yourself.jpg “Embrace who you are and don’t make any apologies for being yourself.”

Have you ever felt ashamed of who you are? Do you shy away from showing your real self? Are you afraid of what others will think of you, flaws and all? The ultimate battle between who we are and who we think we should be can be a loud voice inside our heads, stopping us from “coming out” with our truth.

However, letting outside beliefs, conditions or people dictate how we live isn’t okay. Neither is living in an emotional prison that may have been built by yourself and others. We create the lives we live. There isn’t anyone else who really has control over our personality, lifestyle or beliefs unless we give them that power.

For years, I felt ashamed of the person I am. I felt like I needed to hide my past from people, to hide the dark truths of my life and also just hide myself. I felt the desire to please people first instead of making myself happy because that is what I believed real friendship and love depended on. If I was everything they wanted me to be then I would have a friend, partner or mentor to be there for me like I was for them.

However, I was rudely awakened. Making everyone else happy and putting my needs last was the worst thing I could have done for myself. Not only did I lose those people in the end but I also lost me. I was so afraid to talk, speak up or share what I was thinking and feeling. I didn’t want to be judged or seen as weak or naive.  I always felt the need to apologize for myself.

What I was actually doing was abusing myself and letting others abuse and take advantage of me. This is not love nor friendship.

You are the one who has the keys to your happiness. You can choose to express yourself in whichever way you want. Don’t live your life dependent on anyone’s beliefs, opinions or thoughts of you. I know it is much easier said than done but once you start embracing who you are, you begin to embrace your real happiness.

You are giving yourself the gift of true respect, authenticity and love. People who love you for you will be there and those that don’t, well that relationship wasn’t right for you anyway.

Way to start embracing who you really are right now:

  1. Live from your heart- Begin to check in with yourself and see how you are feeling throughout the day. Live from your heart and make decisions that won’t compromise your happiness later.
  2. Learn to say “no”- It is okay to say no. You can turn down an invite, or not always be the therapist for your friend to talk to. Put your needs first and if you aren’t fully comfortable there is nothing wrong with just plain saying,  “No” or “Not right now”. People are willing to wait and be patient.
  3. Set boundaries- Yes, we must all set boundaries but for us people-pleasers this can be the most difficult. If someone isn’t respecting your boundaries voice it in the most kind yet assertive way possible. You want to make your point and be clear.

Turn a new leaf today and start living, breathing and being

you.

3 Lessons You Can Learn from Feeling Lost

“People often say that this or that person has not yet found himself. But the self is not something one finds, it is something one creates.” –Thomas Szasz

Have you ever felt lost? Do you feel lost right now with no direction? We have all been there and it’s not a pleasant feeling.

Feeling lost can be terrifying, nerve-wracking and yet eye-opening all at the same time.

Recently I went on a hike, the first of the summer. It started out great and then we took a wrong turn. Before we knew it, we were lost deep in the woods. It had already been 45 minutes and I was starting to lose my patience.

If things couldn’t get any worse I encountered a snake (my first time seeing one) which set me over the edge. I panicked and freaked out. I was extremely emotional and had a serious anxiety attack. I felt so out of control and lost. I wondered if we would ever get out of the woods and thoughts of being stuck or worse, death crossed my mind.

Eventually we found our way out of the woods by an entrance nowhere close to where we initially started. It was quite an experience and I learned some profound truths about being lost that day.

1. Control- The first thing about being lost is loss of control. You feel as if you have no control over anything and everything you have tried has failed. It is out of your hands.

So what DO you have control over? Yourself. It is easy to panic or listen to our irrational fears and thoughts. But it does nothing. It only makes the situation and circumstance feel worse.

Having control over your own thoughts and approach will lighten the load. You may not have the answer immediately to which direction to take but you can use your wise mind to make more rational and intuitive decisions.

Never make an impulsive decision when feeling lost. Making impulse decisions only add to the fears and lack of control you are experiencing. It is best to wait and go through the experience with a wiser awareness and approach before making a decision.

2. Direction-  One of the worst feelings about being lost is not knowing what path to take, feeling directionless or afraid that you will take the wrong path and miss out on something.

Being lost in the woods taught me that while we didn’t end up finishing where we started I was still on a path to somewhere. The unknown can be scary, extremely scary. Knowing what to expect creates a sense of safety. Safety is important but sometimes it prevents us from growing and going outside of our comfort zones.

The path you take may not be the one you hoped or anticipated but nevertheless it will teach you great things. It will lead you to places within that you may need to face or deal with. There is no right or wrong path. There may be detours or setbacks but these are also a part of the journey.

If everything we experienced came easily we may not understand certain human truths including empathy, compassion or trust.

3. Facing Inner Truths-  Sometimes it takes being lost to really find yourself and realize who you really are. You discover what makes you stronger and your own inner critic gets silenced. You experience an awakening and a deeper wisdom that perhaps wasn’t there before. It is okay to be lost. It is okay to feel alone in the experience. Just know it’s not a permanent experience or feeling.

“Nothing in life is permanent, not even our troubles.”

Listen to your inner voice and allow the unknown to guide you to your next destination.

New Moon, New Chapter?

  Time is literally flying by this year! We are just 5 weeks away from turning a new leaf and starting the new year! Can you believe it? Speaking of turning a new leaf, the New Moon in Sagittarius just passed November 22nd. I’m not an avid astrology follower but I do believe the planets and moon phases can influence certain behaviors, moods and attitudes. There is a known fact that our bodies are made up of 70% something water so it would make sense when these huge supermoons or blood moons occur that perhaps we too feel an energetic shift.

So what is a new moon anyway and how does this relate to us? The moon is barely visible during the New Moon phase versus when it’s full we can spot it right away. New moons represent a time of trust and setting intention, starting anew or working from a blank page and creating a new chapter in your life. It’s also a time of letting go of the old and embracing what is to come.

New moons are about planting seeds of intentions, sending out prayers/thoughts to the Universe of what you’d like to see manifest, develop or cultivate. Its a period of reflection, learning to trust the dark or void energy, sitting in idle and trusting in the magic of the universe. We live in a time where everything is immediate and fast but sometimes there is a law of delay in which timing is everything. We can’t always get what we want right away but if we learn to just wait a little bit perhaps a better opportunity or experience is arriving.

Are you at a crossroads in your life where it’s time to let go of something old and embrace something new? It’s not too late to draw on this energy and creatively visualize your life in the next 3-6 months.

Even in my own personal experience the last few days I’ve been feeling this massive push to donate so many things and sell items I no longer have a use for but had represented something sentimental to me at one point. There is always something bittersweet in letting go of the old but yet so phenomenally exciting to see what else is out there? What does your blank page look like?  Let go and start a new chapter!

How to Heal from a Breakup

heartbreakYou are probably reading this because like me you’ve experienced some form of loss or heartbreak either in the past or right now. Heartbreak doesn’t have to just come from intimate partners but from our parents, friends, pets, etc. Loss is loss even if it’s not romantic. I’ve written about this many times before but working as a psychic medium and from general experience I have spoken with so many people who have lost someone or something including myself.

Breakups are like a shock to the system. Our worlds are turned upside down and it’s almost as if we have been knocked down to rock bottom. Sometimes there are warning signs and we may expect it to end soon and other times we are completely blind-sided. In my case with my own recent breakup, it was a mixture of both. We had our flare-ups and there were definitely issues of concern but I didn’t think it was impossible to work through. However in the end, those issues became larger and larger and eventually led to an abrupt ending which left me wondering if it had been all my fault.

Not only did it bring a variety of mixed emotions but the pain that remained was the worst most gut-wrenching feeling ever. I wondered if I’d be able to breathe again or if I could just get through one work day without taking bathroom breaks to cry.  Let me tell you that tissue box became my best friend! Most days were a roller coaster of emotions for me. In just 5 minutes I would feel angry, sad, destroyed, happy, hopeful, angry, relieved and then hopeful all over again and that cycle would repeat all day.

After enough days of crying myself to sleep, loss of appetite and lack of motivation to do anything I finally came to terms that I needed to start taking care of myself. I had to accept it was over and there weren’t going to be any second chances, not because I wanted one but because I realized I didn’t want that relationship anymore.

After seeing someone you loved so deeply walk away from you and give up fighting for something they once believed in, you sort of have to just accept things and let it go. I couldn’t force it and I wasn’t going to prove that I was worth it, that we were worth it.

I’m a firm believer in everything happens for a reason and I’m definitely not a weak person by nature so I decided I would start the healing process and force myself to move on and let that relationship go.

I found in the process people were so quick to tell me: 1. You’re strong, you’ll get through this, 2. Time heals all wounds (my personal not favorite), 3. You’ll get over it, something better is to come. There were so many cliche responses and so many of them that just didn’t help in my healing process. I personally feel the last thing someone wants to hear is any of those. When you’re hurting, you’re hurting and time nor space nor a million affirmations are going are going to heal you, at least not right away.

So how did I move on? And more importantly, how we can move on from a break up? How can we heal from the loss of someone we shared a life with? Will the pain ever subside and just plain go away?

Here are some ways that helped me and I hope they help you in your journey towards healing and happiness.

1. Create a strong support group.

The biggest thing for me was having strong reliable friends and family to be there whether it was just to listen to me rant or have a fun outing to take my mind off everything.  I can’t be more grateful for everyone who picked me up and reminded me of who I really am and what I’m worthy and deserving of.   Having a strong support network is a top priority in the healing process. Don’t be afraid to reach out and ask for help or just some relationship advice. They will be your backbone and your foundation when you feel like you’re losing sight of the bigger picture.

2. Find a confidant, mentor or therapist to guide you.

After breakups, our emotional state is so raw. We are wounded and sometimes need someone who is a neutral party to guide us on our way to recovery. I have an amazing therapist who helped me connect with my emotions in a positive way and understand that relationship and breakup in a wiser perspective. If you aren’t someone who does therapy, then find a teacher/coach/confidant or mentor who can push  and encourage you along your path. It seriously is some of the best medicine emotionally and mentally! I always leave my session feeling lighter and happier and more confident in my life decisions.

3. Focus on physical and mental health.

After we ended, I decided to focus and channel all my energy on running my first half marathon race. I’m definitely no experienced runner but physical health has always been important to me so what better way to channel all those mixed emotions than get in shape and focus on an end goal. You may not want to run a half marathon but perhaps there are physical fitness goals you’ve been wanting to work on. Get a fitness coach or attend a class and set a goal to those pounds you’ve been wanting to shed or just get back into shape and feel good about yourself again! Not only is physical fitness healthy but it makes us feel good about yourself and releases that emotional distress you’re going through.

It’s important to have a mind-body connection and  feel overall balanced in every aspect of our life, so don’t forget your mental and emotional health. Every week focus on short-term goals by exercising x amount of times, eating healthier and making yourself happier by doing something nice for yourself. Writing helped me a lot to connect to my emotions as well as meditation. I also purchased books on grief and healing from a breakup to connect to other people stories and help me in my own.

4. Do what you always wanted to do but never did in that relationship.

Often times, people say they lost themselves in their relationship or compromised so much of their own interests and happiness for the sake of their partner’s. Well you’re single now and it’s all about you! Make a list of all of the things you wanted to do but couldn’t do or didn’t when you were in the relationship and make it a goal to do some of them now! We don’t always need our partners to share experiences with. Reach out to friends and family and ask them to join you in any adventure whether its simply to check out a new restaurant you’ve been dying to try or catch a movie.

5. Disconnect from any social media with your ex. 

Some people remain friends with their exes on social media after their breakups which I personally never understand why. Its like opening an fresh wound over and over again and not letting it heal properly. Social media can be difficult to disconnect from because it’s the last thing that keeps that person alive and fresh in our memory and its also a way for us to still be close to him/her but let’s face it, it really ends up doing more harm than good. Unless you are able to be acquaintances or friends right away, it’s best to cut the cord until you and the person are on the same page emotionally.

6. Put any reminders of them away.

It’s hard to box away sentimental things connected to our exes but for the time being while you are healing it’s often said to put away any reminders. I’m not saying burn it or throw away the items but simply just put it all in a box and come back to it another time when you’re in a stronger place and no longer have an emotional attachment to the items. When you are able to look back at the relationship and have a neutral feeling or sense of gratitude and acceptance then you’ve made great progress.

7. Self-talks. 

You may look back and realized you made a huge mistake or think it was all your fault. However, remind yourself of all the reasons why the relationship wasn’t right for you and what wasn’t working in it. Make a list of all the positives and the negatives and remind yourself every day the reasons why it didn’t or couldn’t work.

I constantly had these inner dialogues with myself and went through a cycle of thoughts of everything I had loved about the relationship to then everything that wasn’t right for me and eventually it really push me to move on and reinforced so many things for me. I still experienced a variety of mixed emotions but In the end, I came to a place of acceptance, peace and understanding that it wasn’t the right relationship for me.

Self-talks will be a huge part of the healing process and honestly are dynamic moving forward. You will always value something about that person and the relationship but also remember the things you were looking for that were unfulfilled and what you’d like in the future with someone new.

8. Love yourself.

Lastly, always remember to love yourself. It’s so easy to beat ourselves up after a break up. Go through all the qualities you love about yourself and that you offer in a relationship. Be around people who also love and adore you. Be compassionate and forgiving of yourself and any mistakes you made in that relationship. Be open to experiencing love from the world through new friendships, opportunities and experiences.

One of my favorite quotes that I will leave with you.

“You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.”